Sleep
[Verse 1]
Going into the cave at 9pm
Quiet night, quiet vibe, just me and my pen
Cold beer on the side, wish everyone good night
Cos I’m wrestling a dream and won’t sleep on the vibe
The studio truly feels like a dungeon
You don’t know what writing could do cos you ain’t done some
Now I could make my bed, I’d rather generate success
Either way I’m gonna sleep in it so fuck a rest
Crickets chirping while I’m working
Every verse is like a sermon, it’s my purpose
So I surf it like a merman
And some might call me vermin or a nerd cos I’m so wordy, I’m deterring, now I’m heated up and burning
Does hard work pay off? Am I perceiving it right?
Am I meeting requirements or just day-dreaming at night?
Or maybe I’m just addicted to being awake
Cos I hate the way I live and wanna be seeing a change
[Verse 2]
Fuck, I can hardly sleep, cos my heart is week
My soul is broken, deep depression and it’s hard to beat
Just when I thought that a snooze is what I need
Tired all day, feel like death, chronic fatigue
2 hours of YouTube, ain’t nothing to me
Just to preoccupy my mind and put it at ease
Put my phone down, just me and my thoughts
That’s scary cos I don’t wanna hear the beast in me talk
I’d much prefer to listen to Jaque Merell
Speak about Em and Kells or whoever the fuck else
Fuck staring reality in the face
“You’re worth it” - nah, that’s just a fallacy people say
My whole body is feelin’ so numb it hurts
And I’ve tried not trying - it doesn’t fuckin’ work
So I retreat to a ruled A4 sheet
If not, make more beats
Goin’ a-wall, fuck sleep
[Verse 3]
Maybe it’s the solitude that I’m obsessed with
Either chasing girls or chasing my next fix
Hitting up girls that I wanna get with
Or thinking ‘bout parties, I wasn’t on the guest list
The clock is reading 12
That’s four whole hours and I spent ‘em by myself
But when I’m with people I just end up taking Ls
I wish that things were different but I feel like I’m in hell
I’m making music, it’s the only thing I’m doing well
Well, it’s my gift like I’m under some kind of magic spell
6;30am I exit my den
And that night do the exact same thing again