My Life Before My Eyes

I lie here waiting
For one of my sons to walk right through my door
But no one’s coming
Cause everyone I’ve loved is lost I’m on my own
My greatest fear is here
And I don’t want to die alone
I want my family
They always said they needed me
But I need them more
It’s getting hard to breathe
And I feel the cold
And it’s taking over

I see my friends and family
And my boys are by my side
Before it all went wrong
Before the both of them had died
And I will try just to go back to a time when I knew I had it all
I’d give anything to have them here beside me
But that’ll never be I’m all alone

Dear God how did this happen to me?
You left me with no purpose and left them both to bleed
They killed my boy at home and the other overseas
So now I’m left to rot alone and die in this hospital
If they could both just be here now
I’d let them know before I go I was so damn proud
But they are never coming home
So now I’m left to rot alone and die in this hospital

Give it up surrender
Let it all subside there’s no one by your side
You’ll never, you’ll never win this battle within
Your time has come, your body’s going numb now give in

I see my friends and family
And my boys are by my side
Before it all went wrong
Before the both of them had died
And I will try just to go back to a time when I knew I had it all
I’d give anything to have them here beside me
But that’ll never be I’m all alone

My skin goes cold as I’m barely breathing
My body’s done I’ve lost all control
I want my sons right here beside me
But now they’re both gone, and I don’t want to die alone
I’m starting to feel my vitals failing
I’m drifting away to the dark unknown
Death sinks in as it overcomes me
My greatest fear is here I don’t want to die alone

As the last beat of my old heart subsides
The doctors call the time, it looks like I’ve died alone.