Mother I know God is watching

Mother, will you go to Heaven?
Will I go to Hell?
I swear I've been a good child
Everyday I am trying
I wish I wanted to accept
What I was born to be
But God did not create me
As beautifully
Mother, I know God is watching
But he punishes me

And I don’t think
I have ever deserved
Your undying love
For I have been
A child of sin
And I will live in my shame
Forever and ever