Thoughts In My Head

[Verse 1]

Uh, What u know about battling yourself
Fighting inside but whole time it's shattering your health
Trying to pick up yourself but you just can't move
Trying to stay positive but it always get over ruled
By the negative like your mental health is competitive
No sedatives there isn't a corrective medicine
For these thoughts that's keeping you locked down like a C.O
Me, myself and I? What a fucking trio
I'm Neo in the Matrix battling hatred
Smacking the faces of the racist fascist
For blacks who raised fists, when problems arise
I look it deep in the eyes then fuck it between the thighs
I, only lose to depression no contesting
That only leads to more stress in my chest and
I don't know, how much more I can take
I need a clean slate so trust when I say

[Hook 2x]

You wouldn't wanna know the thoughts in my head
Demons inside and I'm keeping them fed
I said I, I feel like I'm living life on the edge
But instead of being down I'ma hold up my head

[Verse 2]

On a mission to become a legendary M.C
Is harder than it seems contrary to belief
I believe in myself but a team and some wealth
Would help, but depression got me fending for self
Anti-social stuck in the house not going out
And I'm still on probation I gotta watch out
Any mishaps can lead to three hots and a cot
I'd rather be at home with a thot on my cock
Sloppy toppy calling me poppy, Oroku Saki
That means I be shredding the box see
My pen and my pad is my only release
Mad at the world only hoping for peace
Then I blink and another black man's deceased
By the gun of a white police, when will it cease
Probably never 'cause they want us eradicated
When I make it I hope that u celebrate it please don't hate it because

[Hook 2x]

[Verse 3]

Trying to stay surrounded by positive energy
I know the negativity hinders me and it's killing me mentally
Got me tryna break thru the wall in my brain
But, what if I'm straight and y'all insane
We're all the same, I'm a human being too
I got the same blood and veins that's in you
It's a shame how my people getting treated 'cause of melanin
Pac told u how my people do if u don't let us in
We gon' kick, break and knock down doors
Create our own we don't have to hound yours
Set new boundaries, raise the bar
I'm from the hood but it raised a star, I'ma take it far
Way further than the eye can see
When my daughter life's set I can die complete
Hope to die in my sleep when it's my time to go
The things I be thinkin' about king I'm tryna let u know

[Hook 2x]

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