Jonah's Safety

Let the world see where I've been
Let the world see where I've been
Same clothes, same bed
Four walls, one head
There am I, to walk on just to skate
Skate or failing
Heart in the wind or basement

I know this lady, diagnosed with post-natal depression
She don't wan' hold her baby
The social worker came and left there, worried 'bout Jonah's safety
Therapy every Friday, she ain't been gone there lately
Formula milk in the bottle but mum said it's better to actually breastfeed
Dealing with different emotions, jealousy, hatred, anger, envy
Partner wanna make love but she just feels agony, not sexy
Right now she ain't baby, boyfriend, friends or family-friendly
Love you, miss you, how have you been?
It's like you don't know what these words all mean
You ain't got long left for maternal leave
Work on the weekend, work all week
Boss, baby, boyfriend
How you gonna serve all three?
Cigarette and some herbal tea
Thinking about an eternal sleep
It's already been a long journey
And now you've put yourself in a guilt trip
I read an article about a woman who felt like you had a baby and
Nobody knew that's how she felt
She had this smile that concealed it
Then she killed herself and filmed it

Rock-a-bye baby, rock-a-bye baby
Who's watchin' over me when I'm watchin' my baby?
Rock-a-bye baby, rock-a-bye baby
Who's watchin' over me when I'm watchin' my baby
Trust in my son's eyes
Is why I never left before the sunrise
Anytime I try to unwind
I hear my son cry

Everyone too judgemental
They don't know your pain
Ever since your waters burst
They don't know you're drained
Gotta put your newborn first
You say you ain't got no more faith (oh, oh)
And winter's doing its worst (oh, oh)
So it's been a indoor day
The TV's on in the background
You're in the house all thoughts on chores (ooh)
Two words catch your ear, "Abortion laws"
Now you're feeling triggered
'Cause you had to keep a baby for a man that raped you
Shivers
How can the state you live in, cause the state you been in?
How can a man only get four years for raping women?
How can the government tell you what you can do with your body?
I hate this system
If I ruled the world with Lauren and Nas, I'd make things different
Two months in, you was thinking adoption
Now you don't think it's an option
You got a partner, not the father
But what do you think is the problem?
He don't have his own kids, but he wants them
Maybe that's why he's been drinking often
They say all men are the same
But this one's different from them
You want to be with them, but you're leavin' them
This evenin', the reason is
You wish you was happy, but the new you ain't the previous

Pain, certainly
Everything's been hurting me
I'm just tryna, I'm just tryna breathe
Every day, breathless
Someone, help me, please
Please, babe, say it to me
Everything's been hurting me
I'm just tryna, I'm just tryna breathe
Everyday breathless
Someone help me, please
Someone help me, please

Rock-a-bye baby, rock-a-bye baby
Who's watchin' over me when I'm watchin' my baby?
Rock-a-bye baby, rock-a-bye baby
Who's watchin' over me when I'm watchin' my baby
Trust in my son's eyes
Is why I never left before the sunrise
Anytime I try and unwind
I hear my son cry