poison and purging

Can't believe you made me feel like I was not deserving
Now I cry at night and try to deal with all this hurting
Getting help but still I feel the situation worsen
Dependent on mistreatment, so of course I lost my purpose
Can't believe you made me feel like I was not deserving
Now I cry at night and try to deal with all this hurting
Getting help but still I feel the situation worsen
Dependent on mistreatment, so of course I lost my purpose

Thought I lost the serpents, but they're lurking in the grass
Putting trust in persons, open curtains from the past
Then I see them smirking, ghosts emerging from the dark
Paint me as a burden, feel the burning in my heart
It's a miracle I'm standing after damage through the years
I'm invisible it's magic more like madness they don't hear
Shit it's pitiful can't manage how I'm ravaged by the fears
Its the pinnacle of sadness, now I'm battling with tears
Appointment on appointment see I'm searching for a reason
Pointless there's no ointment for the burning and the bleeding
Annoyance, disappointment I'm deserving of the treatment
Destroying with your poison pray for purging and for freedom
Tomorrow isn't promised and thats never up for question
Hollow and a problem cause I'm sick of fucking lessons
Clearly didn't hear me when I prayed for luck and blessings
Took my breath away, a step away from numb and breathless

Can't believe you made me feel like I was not deserving
Now I cry at night and try to deal with all this hurting
Getting help but still I feel the situation worsen
Dependent on mistreatment, so of course I lost my purpose
Can't believe you made me feel like I was not deserving
Now I cry at night and try to deal with all this hurting
Getting help but still I feel the situation worsen
Dependent on mistreatment, so of course I lost my purpose