STRUGGLE

Wake the fuck up
Wake the fuck up this morning

Yeah
Mic check, mic check, mic check
Yeah
One two, one two, one two
Yeah
I do it for me, I do it for you
Yeah
Listen

I know one day I won't wake up
And I hope that day's tomorrow
'Cause
lately my depression got me drowning in my sorrow
Hate staring at my reflection cause I don't recognize
The person looking back, it's like I'm wearing a disguise
I despise people who don't like to apologize
If you're wrong, just say so, it's okay to put your pride aside
I have tried too many times to be something I'm not
But your name's kettle, so don't go judging what's in my pot
I smoke pot every now and then to ease the tension
But I just end up showing behaviors of condescension
And did I fail to mention
That I think the weed's affecting my knowledge and comprehension
My mind is lacking retention
So some days I feel illiterate, I know I'm inconsiderate
Don't give two fucks about your feelings or opinions
I can't even get out my own head
So why would I be worried about shit that you said

And some days are more difficult than others
But I don't tell a soul that it's a struggle
My thoughts are hard to juggle
And sometimes I'm afraid to tell my mother
Mama just know I love you
But dealing with you is trouble

And some days are more difficult than others
But I don't tell a soul that it's a struggle
My thoughts are hard to juggle
And sometimes I'm afraid to tell my mother
Mama just know I love you
But dealing with you is trouble

Don't want to get out this warm bed
But if I sleep all day that means that they can get ahead
And you can only do that when I'm dead
But I'm gonna live as long as the verses on my pad
A wise woman once said that life is like a road
But I am at a dead end and I don't know where to go
I wish someone would see that I need saving from myself
'Cause
pride's the only reason that I will not ask for help
I'm dancing with my demons in the corner of my room
I pump my lungs with THC I'm moving on to shrooms
Wish I could go back to the days when we were kids
'Cause
now I want to leave and go live off the grid
I hate that I seek validation from my peers and others
The same people that's gonna judge a book that's biased cover
Why don't you read it maybe it's something you can discover
Most people think about it but they won't go through the struggle

And some days are more difficult than others
But I don't tell a soul that it's a struggle
My thoughts are hard to juggle
And sometimes I'm afraid to tell my mother
Mama just know I love you
But dealing with you is trouble

And some days are more difficult than others
But I don't tell a soul that it's a struggle
My thoughts are hard to juggle
And sometimes I'm afraid to tell my mother
Mama just know I love you
But dealing with you is trouble