Deadbeat

Bloodshot eyes
No surprise
Feels like I'm dying inside
Inhale the smoke until I choke
Cough up a lung til my ribs poke
Grind up, roll up, spark it again
repeat, repeat, repeat
Now I'm just a broke fucking deadbeat

Time is of the essence
let me roll up before it
I swear it's just my medicine
I'm not trying to escape the horrors of reality
No, no I'm just trying to feel like me
What the fuck does that even mean?

Countless days just seem to roll by
Another day wasted endless scrolling lying on my side
I'll stare at the ceiling til it stares back at me
A consistent stream of consciousness that's screaming

Get the fuck out of bed
You lazy piece of shit
Stop wasting your life away
You have so much you want to do
But time keeps fleeting away
Never enough hours in a day
Why does this haze never seem to fade away?

Bloodshot eyes
No surprise
Feels like I'm dying inside
Inhale the smoke until I choke
Cough up a lung til my ribs poke
Grind up, roll up, spark it again
repeat, repeat, repeat
Now I'm just a broke fucking deadbeat
At least i had fun with it
At least that's what I keep telling myself
In this never ending nightmare

No

It never fucking ends
A viscous cycle of
"What the fuck is wrong with me?
Why can't I just be happy?
Why can't I just be happy?"

Fuck

GLAAASSS EATEEERRRRR
FUCK YOU

No more hiding from the demons within
It's time to smash all their fucking faces in
Get my mind right by endless careless pills??
No thank you my mind seems to love the pain

Get out of my head
Get out of my head
Get the fuck out of my head