Ender’s Blame

[Verse 1: Godemis]
Yeah he stabbed himself in the heart way back when
Her mom took the blade out, she put it back it
Oblivious to the reason, wondering why
Wouldn't she have left it out if she really wanted to die?
Guess she really wanted to fry, God-fearing Christian
Who was really ready to fly
But I don't blame her for it, anymore it's history
They say that's it's a cowardly act, but I disagree
People flirting with suicide really fucks me up
They just want the attention, they ain't got the nuts
David blew his brains out and didn't hesitate
I wish to hell I would've taught him how to meditate
We live to die and it fit us under a heavy weight
And being alive alone ain't reason to celebrate
Pray to the angels that what you believe in will delegate
And through divine intervention help you carry the weight

[Hook (x2): Godemis]
You need true believing if you feeling like it's do or die
There ain't no animosity dividing you and I
And is it worth it? I don't know, I'd figure you decide
I'm going through it while you're going it through it suicide

[Verse 2: Godemis]
Ernie slit both of his wrists and didn't leave a note
I guess he thought it was a [?rap?] and didn't see any hope
His mom took it way better than I would've imagined
A loss of words at the way that she asked me what happened
I feel like a bad friend but that was back then
Now when I miss him I just remember him laughing
I do resent him but them I'm a hypocrite
I'll admit, think about it I feel him a little bit
But is it safe to say that I'm pondering every day
Put the chrome to head in the mirror ready to spray
I'm leaning toward it but I ain't ready today
Just a lapse in motivation when I get carried away
But I won't be buried that way
Got to many moves to make that cadavers could never take
Cause the shit that I gotta say
Can't be written and recorded while rotting inside a-- grave

[Hook (x2): Godemis]
You need true believing if you feeling like it's do or die
There ain't no animosity dividing you and I
And is it worth it? I don't know, I'd figure you decide
I'm going through it while you're going it through it suicide