Eighteen

Remember we were eighteen
We thought we had it all figured out
In a world with love all we’d need is us
We’d make it work without a doubt
Well who knew you were fucking crazy
And the worlds a god damn mess
Wish your heart of stone would have opened up
Like you opened up your legs

You knew the words to make me hate me
So do your worst I’ll let you break me
I’ve tried I can’t let it go
I’m a slave to the anguish and forced just to live with the pain that I’ll never know
If I gave it a shot would a life still been lost in the wake?

Didn’t know didn’t know how bad you needed me
I couldn’t handle the fall I wasn’t listening
Could have been could have been the drug I know you need
Instead I thought of myself just like you’d expect from me

Now that you fucking hate me
Because I slept with my favorite ex
I can break apart from the battle scars that you left inside my head
Well who knew she would go and OD
And I would be a wreck?
Had a change or heart
Now her open arms
Are being buried in an X

You don’t get it you just don’t get it
The smoother it tastes, the bigger mistake you let in
You don’t get it you just don’t get it
You’re running away but you don’t know where you’re headed

You know you don’t get it
So sweet you can’t let it in
I know you need to escape
So sweet you can’t let it

Didn’t know didn’t know how bad you needed me
I couldn’t handle the fall I wasn’t listening
Could have been could have been the drug I know you need
Instead I thought of myself just like you’d expect from me

Remember sex outside?
We didn’t even hide it
Pretending they would find us
Was half the fun
No no couldn’t wait till night
We never wanted to
I always wanted you
We didn’t call it love we knew it was enough
You thought I was the one
I thought that it was lust

Didn’t know didn’t know how bad you needed me
I couldn’t handle the fall I wasn’t listening
Could have been could have been the drug I know you need
Instead I thought of myself just like you’d expect from me