Alone

Lying awake, on my own again
I can finally steal the entire bed
And yet I curl into this ball of flesh
Protected from the chill that starts
Inside my bones and spreads to parts
Of me that I'd forgotten could feel
The pain of cold
But they'll numb themselves soon enough or so I'm told
Alone
Desperate for somebody, for you to hold
But all I'll be is holding out until the only skin I need's my own
To feel at home again
Alone again
Window is open and the sky is dim
You know me and my affair with 4 a.m
But all I wish for now is sleep's sweet release
Music of the rain keeps me awake
Wishing it were running down my face
Instead of rivulets of the saltier kind
Oh, how it stings
But like learning, healing's only something time can bring
Alone
Desperate for somebody, for you to hold
But all I'll be is holding out until the only skin I need's my own
To feel at home again
Alone again
The walls where our shadows used to play
The echoes of promises we made
The sheets where our bodies used to lay
Tangled and hard to discern
Like telling apart happiness and familiar comfort
Alone
Desperate -- for you to hold
But all I'll be is holding out until the only skin I need's my own
To feel at home again
Alone again
Whole again
Alone again…