Universes

i cant tell if its my heart or my brain.
im manic and i know it’s just a state.
something that i chose not to sedate.
i just think better when it's late.
i made something then i burned it, did it on purpose.
i can't tell if it was worth it or if i deserve it.
and i keep winning the game and it makes me feel more worthless.
and i keep wandering off into different universes.
you're somewhere else and the one of you i know is somewhere parallel.
and i keep telling myself that this is not a hell and i’ll earn my happiness when i do something well.
am i all alone when i fall asleep.
wish i could save my bones from my circuitry.
i'm a clone of me with my psychology.
there’s no room for me in my reality.
i rewind like i got the super 8 so i can binge watch all my mistakes.
you'll never get me out of my way.
i just think better when it’s late.
you’re somewhere else.
and the one of you i know is out there by themselves.
and i keep telling myself that it is not a hell and the one of me who’s there still knows how to help.
am i all alone when i fall asleep.
wish i could save my bones from my circuitry.
i'm a clone of me with my psychology.
there’s no room for me in my reality.
do we run parallel, or is my image that of someone else?
do i believe this isn’t hell?
cause i am hurting when i try to help.
maybe we all get lost, maybe it’s in my blood.
don’t think I’m ever gone.
I’m simply losing touch.
am i all alone when you fall asleep?
it’s better not to taint your reality.
broken record with my apologies.
do you lose sleep just at the thought of me?
am i all alone when i fall asleep.
wish i could save my bones from my circuitry.
i'm a clone of me with my psychology.
there’s no room for me in my reality.
i made something then i burned it, did it on purpose.
i can't tell if it was worth it or if i deserve it.
and i keep winning the game and it makes me feel more worthless.
and i keep wandering off into different universes.