Blun Spoom

So instead of pushing you away
And needing you to stay
I'll refrain from casually allowing this shame to stay

And allow you leave
Allow you to go
Allow you to be whatever it is that you get to be
Allow you to go
I'll allow you to see
Whatever it is that you get to be

Several things I spun in your defense
While I'm making all the opposite of sense
I was caught up in a lie I couldn't keep
Faking happy just to keep the peace

Everything I told you meant to keep
And while the [?] isn't [?]
Its just everything I do is [?]
I waited for you to return my call
I let you down