Scratch the Vein

I can't eat and I can't sleep
Where am I going, who will come with me?
The signs are there for all to see
But I am blinded by my enmity

I cut the lines and I cut my losses
No one knows what my loss truly is
I'll scratch the vein
Despite what it could mean
I need this pain inside to keep me free

I'm hooked on drugs, they are hooked on hope
All I think about is tightening the rope
I fear no fear, because no fear I see
All of this time, the fear has been deep within me
In all my life, I'm forgetting to live
What would I give, is be clear of the things I'm yet to forgive
As the wounds scab over
The scars are there as proof you're not sober

My world is plagued with disconnect
I will ignore what's being thrown at me
Every drop the money just bleeds
The thing that matters is the fix I need

I cut the lines and I cut my losses
No one knows what my loss truly is
I'll scratch the vein
Despite what it could mean
I need this pain inside to keep me free

I'm hooked on drugs, they are hooked on hope
All I think about is tightening the rope
I fear no fear, because no fear I see
All of this time, the fear has been deep within me
Deep within me

I will break free of this hold
It's time to change my own mould
My days are getting brighter still
The shadow controlled
My poison picked for far too long
I believed I was gone
A soul dimmed of all it shone
My heart still beats on
I kept my past inside the present
And dwelled on it all
Time to prove I'm made of gold
Before my kingdom falls