This Wasn't Part of the Plan

I wonder if there's anything's left behind those red eyes
Cause I have no idea what the hell you are on tonight
All I know is that I wish I were the one on your mind
Maybe I'm the one who doesn't know to draw the line
I tried pulling you out but you're halfway down the grave
And I can tell you don't mind from the look that's on your face
I've tried ignoring everything that all my friends have said
About the way you've been making me sit with you in hell

So you go ahead and pin the blame on my lack of trust
But darling why don't you tell me where you think that came from
I can't ride or die with you if we got shit in the trunk
Because I wanna be your girl and not your fucking mom

I told you not to hurt yourself but you won't understand
That breaking things and being reckless don't make you a man
I try believing your maybes but I don't think I can
Cause when you said you loved me this wasn't part of the plan

I get home and see that you've downed one drink or seven
I start a fight just so I can watch you feel something else
Toxins in your bloodstream become your disposition
And I grow sick and tired of being told to listen
And so then I remember when we met, our very first weeks
Back then when this didn't hurt and didn't feel so damn mean
I keep convincing myself that tomorrow we'll be gold
That we can both bring back the dead butterflies tomorrow

So you go ahead and pin the blame on my lack of trust
But darling why don't you tell me where you think that came from
I can't ride or die with you if we got shit in the trunk
Cause I wanna be your girlfriend and not your fucking mom

I told you not to hurt yourself but you won't understand
That breaking things and being reckless don't make you a man
I try believing your maybes but I don't think I can
Cause when you said you loved me this wasn't part of the plan