I Was

[Intro: Sample: Chicago - Hard Habit To Break & (J-Formz)]
I was acting as if you were lucky to have me
Doing you a favor, I hardly knew (you knew) you were there
But then you were gone (gone), and it was all wrong (it's off), had no idea how much I cared
(Araz, this is one of the craziest beats I've ever heard in my life son.)
I was (actin as if it was you who needed me
But I needed you to keep me on my feet, off the streets, should've seen
But) I was
(Actin as if what I do to the beat was somethin to make money off, but now I see
This comin so easy? Must be livin a dream...)

[Verse 1: J-Formz]
Look, when I first started spittin, had a mission to get richer
If I'm rippin everything that I've written, what's the difference?
Money, clothes, ice, hoes, thought I could make a million off of spittin what I'm livin
Maybe I was right, but fuck it if I'm wrong
Cause I know I got some of Statens finest songs
I felt like the rap game needed me, I ain't need that
Fuck it, make another track, where the weed at?
I breath hip hop, but I couldn't see that
All I saw was billboard charts, like: "Where we at!?"
All I saw was jewels, like: "Fuck him, I need that!
Why the fuck he gettin paid off that when he wack!?"
Fuck! I was mad at the game
And at one point, I thought of gettin out of the game
But I switched up, and I married the game
Now I am hip hop, and I carry the name
And I was never a hater
You remember that, but if you wack, I don't wanna see you carryin paper
If you fake, I don't wanna see you reppin Staten
Don't deserve to blow? I won't let it happen
Radio, I hear the same shit again and again
Got my head gassed up, cause I was better than them
But I kept my mouth shut and I've listened up
And now I switched up, because...

[Chorus: Sample: Chicago - Hard Habit To Break & (J-Formz)]
I was acting as if you were lucky to have me
Doing you a favor, I hardly knew (you knew) you were there
But then you were gone (gone), and it was all wrong (it's off), had no idea how much I cared
I was (Actin as if it was you who needed me
But I needed you to keep me on my feet, off the streets, should've seen
But) I was
(Actin as if what I do to the beat was somethin to make money off, but now I see
This comin so easy? Must be livin a dream)

[Verse 2: J-Formz]
Now that I've realized that, I feel it's a wrap
Fuck fame, I don't really give a shit about that
I ain't tryin to have somebody else tell me what to do
Just so I make sure that it appeals to you
I do exactly what I want cause I think it's sick
Not cause I want you to think I'm makin hits
And it kind of sounds like I keep sayin the same shit
But you don't listen, you're the one to blame, kid
Listen to the flow, just listen to the beat
Close your eyes, zone out while you're hittin on the weed
And I'm so different now than I used to be
So I could understand if you ain't used to me
But then again, music ain't what it used to be
So I had to switch it up to get into it deep
Every song I made, I stayed true to me
But the joints I did, I didn't do for me
This where I need to be
And what you need to see is that sales of my shit ain't what I need to see
What I need to see is you believe in me
And just cause I ain't rich, you ain't leavin me
One time, I was asked: "What's your goals in the game?"
I'm not hatin, but I don't even know of his name
And it's hard for me to say what I want in return
Cause the more time goes, then the more I learn
But right here, right now, I'mma have to say
What I'm at today is where I'd have to stay
I don't wonder no more why I act this way
So if I feel the need, then I'mma rap this way
I'mma still rip shit, and when the time is right
Maybe I'mma take a step out in the lime light
Cause I'm focused, and my rhymes tight
And my mind's right, but...

[Chorus: Sample: Chicago - Hard Habit To Break & (J-Formz)]
I was acting as if you were lucky to have me
Doing you a favor, I hardly knew (you knew) you were there
But then you were gone (gone), and it was all wrong (it's off), had no idea how much I cared
I was (Actin as if it was you who needed me
But I needed you to keep me on my feet, off the streets, should've seen
But) I was
(Actin as if what I do to the beat was somethin to make money off, but now I see
This comin so easy? Must be livin a dream)

[Outro: J-Formz]
I'm sorry but I had to light up one more time and just let it rock out. My man Araz is crazy on the beats! This shit got me in another world right now man...
Nah, don't even turn it off, just let it rock. Just let it rock, let it ride out. Yeah, ride out. I was...