Proud

To my cousin, my brother, my friend
You know I gotcha back, love you like my blood
Gotcha till the end

I know it hasn’t been easy,
Boy in mans world
Know I’ve been distant
But I’m glad to know you’re doing well

I never show it but it’s time for me to let it out
I never say it, but know that I be sitting proud
Of the man you’ve become
Since young, we were dumb
Everything we’d do under the sun

Yeah

Your father ain’t really home much, he working late
I never had a father figure so I can relate
I know not having a guide feeds the toll it takes
Making wrong decisions cause of thoughts your mind creates

And now I got some shit I wanna express
But I find it hard cause this situations a mess
Nonetheless, I learned my lesson,
I Can’t seem to forget
The image of you on that night
Still stuck in my head

We were kicking it, tryna let loose
I told that I got some M, you turned out to drop two
But I thought that it was okay,
Cause I did the same
I never thought our night would ever have to turn out that way

I let you take my leftover caps with you
I wasn’t worried cause I knew the drug
Would hit you
You left my house, 15 minutes later
Got a call from your mate, saying
“Jules you need to get here”

“What’s wrong? What’s wrong?”

“His eyes are rolling back, I don’t know what to do”

“Call an ambulance I’m coming I’m coming”

As I’m running, my hearts racing, my minds pacing
Your mates are probably wondering on what’s taking
For me to get there, I’m running and I prepare
For what I might see, for when I finally get there

So I arrive, and to my suprise, I see my cousin laying on the floor eyes to the sky

Body pazzing, Body shaking, my heart dropped now you got me saying Chris come on fucking stay awake man
“You’re gonna get through this cuz I promise”
“Just breathe bro”
“Some one call a fucking ambulance”
“Cuz I f..
“I’m so sorry cuz”

Body shut down, you’re laying on the floor
I thought you popped two, but they said you popped 4
I know you wanted the fun
But You only needed 1
Now you got thinking what the fuck do I tell your mum
Even though it was your mistake
I kinda feel responsible
I feel I let you down
Cause I supplied the drugs to you
Next thing I know your fucking laying in the hospital
All because I was irresponsible.
All because I was irresponsible
You know I gotcha back, you know I fucking love you

To my cousin, my brother, my friend
You know I gotcha back, love you like my blood
Gotcha till the end

I know it hasn’t been easy,
Boy in mans world
Know I’ve been distant
But I’m glad to know you’re doing well

I never show it but it’s time for me to let it out
I never say it, but know that I be sitting proud
Of the man you’ve become
Since young, we were dumb
Everything we’d do under the sun

After that you went on a bad path
Drinking up with ur mates at public kids parks
To be driller, that wasn’t your plan
But I guess that’s what you thought it takes to become a man
I had a bro like you, but he’s still caught up
You looked up to him aswell
But he’s always locked up

But you were smart enough to know this ain’t the life that you want
Now you’re working full time in a good paying job
I’m fucking proud you cuz