If Only

I usually don't care, I might even laughed at it
It's ironic how I feel so attached to someone

It's fine when you want it to be, just occasionally
Until you decide to disappear without trace

And when you come back,
it's the same old story
I despise this feeling but I'm under your control
I've cried enough, just let me go

If only you could love me

If for once you could just hold me in your arms
If only you could trust me

Stop taking advantage of my pure heart

Don't choose me as your back up plan

What deeply hurts the most, is how my heart drops

When you do the least and I convinced myself it's valid

I know your love is superficial, and we can't make things official
No matter, I'll still wait for you a hundred days blindly

And when you come back, it's the same old story
I despise this feeling but I'm under your control
I've cried enough, just let me go

If only you could love me

If for once you could just hold me in your arms
If only you could trust me

Stop taking advantage of my pure heart

Don't choose me as your back up plan

No, I don't want to hear you knocking on her door

No more calls and texts when you're feeling bored

I don't mind to loose all hope and know that you and me won't work at all
If you show me there's no love

If only you could love me

If for once you could just hold me in your arms
If only you could trust me

Stop taking advantage of my pure heart

Don't choose me as your back up plan