JUSTHOLDON (feat. Infqlse)

Try to run away from the problem
I take a look at myself and notice all the damage done
Hide from the responsibilities
Found out you were the disease with your lack of relief
Can't figure out your problem
The life I ruined
There's not more to it
Am I a good friend?
When I took a further look and then I retraced
Shouldn't be how it happens
My mind in defense
Sick of the nonsense
I couldn't run it over and over again
I don't want to
I've been trying to get the help like I have planned
I don't want to
But shit keeps blocking the way just like back then
I don't want to
Now the trauma in my head plays over again
You talk so much and yet so little is said
I laid in your arms you said it could be my bed
Now my screen and my mic are the only things I have
I tried reaching my hand out but they only laughed
You say that you hate me and I'm better off dead
Tell me how
Tell me how
Tell me how it's me who's cursed
Tell me how I'm messed up for need your love at my worst
I'm not sure if I want to see tomorrow
I'm biting the dust with your name on it
And I know you don't care but just hear my last words 'cause-
All I wanted was to hear you say
Everything's alright it's just another day
Whatever happens I'll be here you'll be okay
I trusted you and now you want to stay away
Oh why?
Oh why?
You talk so much and yet so little is said
I laid in your arms you said it could be my bed
Now my screen and my mic are the only things I have
I tried reaching my hand out but they only laughed
You say that you hate me and I'm better off
Dead