Hurting out loud

You always hated the way I built these walls
And kept it in
The way I'd deny and smile
Cause to me being weak's a sin

Fixing things is what a man likes to do
For the woman he loves
And I didn't give you that
So I didn't give enough

Since you've gone
I'm learning to break down
I'm falling apart all over town
Crying like a rainstorm I'm not holding back now
You'd be proud
I'm hurting out loud

I was afraid you'd love me less
If you saw this fragile me
All the scrapes and scars and the holes in the heart a lifetime leaves

I didn't beg you to stay, didn't reach for your hand I let you go
Thought I was being strong, so strong, til the levy broke

Since you've gone
I'm learning to break down
I'm falling apart all over town
Crying like a rainstorm I'm not holding back now
You'd be proud
I'm hurting out loud

Oh baby I wish you could see me now
Cause I'm not the same
Talking about all this pain

Since you've gone
I'm learning to break down
I'm falling apart all over town
Crying like a rainstorm I'm not holding back now
You'd be proud oh so proud
'cause I'm hurting out loud

Oh oh you'd be so proud
I'm hurting out loud

Oh you'd be proud so proud
I'm hurting out loud