First Born

I said okay I say yeah yeah yeah
Ooh yeah yeah yeah
Mmm, yeah
Look
I was a first born
Parents had me at 18
Small minds but some great dreams
Ain't really have a plan so they went separate ways
I was young
So that didn't break me
Moved around a lot
Ain't have many steady friends
But always known on the block
Had some troubles at home, so I acted out in school
Got kicked outta class a lot
But I was smart, made good grades
Matter fact made all A's
I just went through some dark days
Seen a nigga put his hands on my momma on occasion
Steady wonder why the fuck she ain't part ways
I used to think all the time you deserve better than that
I know you feel way better when you left his ass
Yeah
Kicked him to the trash
One false word and I'm hopping on his ass, yeah
This weight on my shoulder, I try my best to maintain (This weight on my shoulder)
But I promise I done seen all kind of things yeah (Seen all kind of things)
Felt feelings that I can't explain (I can't explain)
I wish I could but I kinda just let em fade yeah (I let em fade)
Aye yeah, aye yeah aye yeah
I kinda just let em fade off
I play it off do a option just like Lamar
And I ain't one to hold your trust
Been crossed two times like fuck
Hope the third time make enough
First time hurt me enough so I ain't really down for the cuff
Maybe we can Netflix and fuck
Oops I meant Netflix and chill
But you already know what the deal
Cause you insinuated it first
When you hopped up out the shower, sent a pic
Showing me all of your works
Bet I make it work, uh huh
Am I bout the commas, uh huh
Am I bout the drama, nuh uh
Leave me alone if you on that tone, yeah
Sometime I can be a problem
Just show me a queen that's down to ride
We can build something strong that's what I'm always on
This weight on my shoulder, I try my best to maintain (This weight on my shoulder)
But I promise I done seen all kind of things yeah (Seen all kind of things)
Felt feelings that I can't explain (I can't explain)
I wish I could but I kinda just let em fade yeah (I let em fade)
This weight on my shoulder, I try my best to maintain (This weight on my shoulder)
But I promise I done seen all kind of things yeah (Seen all kind of things)
Felt feelings that I can't explain (I can't explain)
I wish I could but I kinda just let em fade yeah (I let em fade)
Cause thats what's natural to me
I do what fits me right
And lately I been sleeping peacefully
Rolling tree
I be higher than Arizona's degrees
I know my parents probably mad I still ain't get my degree
That's on me
I had some other plans but they gone see
I still find comfort cause I always know that they proud of me
They first born
I owe my life to them cause without them I'm torn
My father showed me how to be a man while on the field perfecting my form
And my momma showed me how to love
The type that's unconditional
And Momduce she showed me how to protect my feelings from what a bitch'll do
I ain't mean to come off to harsh but my kindness be my issue too, yeah
Lemme just let it fade