Pictures of Us

It wasn’t pure, it’s true
What was I outside of you?
I wanted to win by comparison
If I could call you my own
Then my house could be a home
It’s never been once but I felt it in us
You were running, I was scared
I was awfully unaware of the knife
Though you were nice about it
It was imminent I’m sure
But I always kept my word, I’d keep calm
You thought it just felt wrong

We would always overthink
Then you’d act like it’s on me
I know it’s defense and I get the reference
Told me I was so deserving
Of a girl who was worthy of my mighty love
I wanted that for us

Truth is, I wouldn’t have chose you
If I thought I didn’t know you and I was right
I fought to keep you in my life
Now we get by with hellos
And how are you’s, when I know
You’re passing the test of looking like you’re not a damn mess, but I am
And have been ever since
That’s why I’m here
Right here
I’m just making sense
Of the discourse in my head
So I put it on tape
That way you hear my heart break

And I’m not here to guilt you
I’m not even an enemy
I just wanted to save you
From the person you’re trying to be
I gave up on winning you
It’s not worth all the shame
Cause if somebody loves you
Then it never feels like a game
I was never meant to be your game
Did you ever think, maybe you were wrong?
Maybe you were wrong

I will always look at pictures of us
And remember how lucky I felt to be your love