Orbit

I'm feeling good today, I'm gonna give it my all
And even if I fall, I don't need no one to call
I got my friends here tonight, They always light up my life
I'm happy yeah I'm alright, I keep my company bright

Ain't got no worries, cuz these flurries I know they never last
We're closer to the future, we don't look at the past
It's senior year, so I have to do all that I can
I've got a plan and its written on the back of my hand

I just refrain from the pain that orbits my brain
Simple and plain, I try to hold back all the disdain
It's getting easier to pretend that everything's right
But, it won't last, after everything that's happened tonight

I'm feeling good today, I'm gonna give it my all
And even if I fall, I don't need no one to call
I just refrain from the pain that orbits my brain
Simple and plain, I try to hold back all the disdain

We got kicked out of the house tonight
It's 28 below
I'm shaking and shivering from the freezing cold
Me and my little bros, wondering where to go
We find shelter, but never know how long we can hold
Onto the faith, that somehow we'll find a place
And everything will be fine, I promised we'll be alright
But all of my hope has got tunnel vision tonight
I'm praying to God that he'll lead me back to the light

And I'm sleeping packed with a knife on concrete floors that are tight
With hundreds of homeless people, just desperate for a bite
Of food, cuz they ain't eaten a single meal since last week
And the future is looking bleaker the longer we have to sleep here

I wake up at 4 A.M. to get ready to go to school
Barely finished my homework so now I look like a fool
I put on a stringent mask, to hide the fact that I'm cracking
Everything I do, I try to make up, I'm lacking
Pretend that I'm alright with dark circles under my eyes
Now I have to disguise the tears I silently cry
Shove my bags in my locker quick as I possibly can
Run head first to the bathroom, question life as a man

Decide that I can handle this mantle all on my own
I was used to suffering silently, yeah, I was alone
Down to the blood in bones, I didn't let anyone know
That I lived a double life and no longer had a home

And that my mom was in the hospital laying next to the phone
She had a flare up from crohns, so after school I would roam
Pick up my brother's from school and then we would hit the road
Back to the shelter life just to get out of the cold
I wouldn't wish this type of life on my enemie's soul
So then I stood to be bold, put our fate on my shoulders
Threw myself at my goal, to graduate without hold
Fake happiness till I made it
A pathway that I created

I'm feeling good today, I'm gonna give it my all
And even if I fall, I don't need no one to call
I got my friends here tonight, They always light up my life
I'm happy yeah I'm alright, I keep my company bright

Ain't got no worries, cuz these flurries I know they never last
We're closer to the future, we don't look at the past
It's senior year, so I have to do all that I can
I've got a plan and its written on the back of my hand

Fast forward to May, all the while living the shelter life
Mom told me she got laid off, what a hell of a night
She cried, I gave her a hug, told her we'll be alright
It was the night of my dance showcase not televised

She got hospitalized soon after that
But this time I didn't have the strength for the aftermath
I fell to pieces, couldn't imagine going to school no more
My aunt offered us to stay with her and I said sure

Staying on 79th on the south side of Chicago
People pulling gats out of they hats, trying to rob you
I try to stay positive, even though I fake it
I'll do whatever it takes just to make it

Even if that means I can no loner be happy
It's crappy to say, but at least I can keep on tracking
My way to graduation, in the face of the odds
Determined to beat them at whatever the cost