​lucky as hell

I still wanted you when you were late every time
I still longed for you when you weren't just mine
I waited for you to sort out all of your shit
Then I made my own home
You brought all of it in

I was patient with you when you tried to pick fights
I always forgave you for telling your lies
And I took the fall
Baby, I took the blame
You weren't looking for love
You were seeking escape

So stack up the bodies of people who dared
To care for you fully
To carefully hold
Your fragile attention and opaquе intentions
And oh, not to mention
Your infectious vicе

You would have ruined my life
You would have ruined my life

Now pick up the pieces
The clues that you left
I tried to decipher everything you said
The codenames and mind games and brutal attempts
To win me back over when I knew what's best
And I look at the pictures of me in your grip
You gave me your sickness, it’s so sunken in
And I’m lucky as hell that I saw the light
And jumped off your ship ‘fore you steered into ice

And I'll heed the warnings I found in the cards
And I'll break the patterns of flame-ridden cars
I won't wish the best for you in most honest terms
I wish you get everything
That you
Have earned
That you’ve earned
That you’ve earned

I wish you get everything
That you've
Earned