Ketamine for Breakfast
Now look here, in the house opposite
Black gate posts with a concrete frog
Squatting on top of it through the hallway
Ancient wallpaper, nicotine gold
Up the stairs, rickety loaded with history
Here, in the top flat
Flowers on the windowsill
Little breeze fluttering the petals
As they stare out at the city streets
Gemma is awake what woke her?
Open eyes, street lights float slowly
Through broken blinds
She watches as the light plays
Across the tattered carpet
And she holds herself tight in
The room's half darkness it's cold
She wedges her hands underneath her armpit's
It's 04: 18 and Gemma's thinking
Before I was a adult i was a little wreck
Peddling whatever I could get
My grubby mitts on ketamine for beakfast
Bad girls were drinking with
I gave 'em puppy dog eyes for
The acid on their fingertips
Heads in the basement lips without faces
Getting feisty, half baked in a bakery
Eating pastries
Desperate for a body who could save me
But I never really wondered what they gave me
Always wanted something else
Sweating in the dole queue
Spittin' like a villain in
The pantomime old shoes bad teeth
Drinking in the rain with my ghost
Sitting in the back of the class, comatose
Uh, villains on my back in the dark
Hold me close but you never held
I did some things I swore I'd never
'Til that night you tried to kill me
Run me down with your car in the snow
I didn't realise I thought you would go
Every day I live lives in the
Day I wake up in
My dreams are all screaming and fucked
But I'm fine now
Something remains, it's still pulling me
Yeah my future is bright but
My past tryna ruin me
Tried to change it but I know
If you're good to me I will let you go
Tried to fight it but I'm sure
If you're bad to me, I will like you more
I saw some things when I was young
That made me who I would become
I feel them with me everyday
'Cause if you try and run away
They run beside you place for place
Trip you up and drag your face
Freedom out of every waste
They chancing every bit of taste
Heart is sprayed up with the names
Of all my friends who lost their way
Doesn't change it all remains
It takes my strength and gives me shame
All I want is someone great
To make me everything I ain't
But the only ones for me
Are the ones that shouldn't be
Even though I'm doing good
I'm working hard, my work is strong
Might be fun just for a while
To go back to where my hurt is from
Rinse myself through emptiness
And push my body close to
Anybody who can recognise the
Presence of my ghost
Tried to change it but I know
If you're good to me I will let you go
Tried to fight it but I'm sure
If you're bad to me I will like you more
Tried to change it but I know
If you're good to me I will let you go
Tried to fight it but I'm sure
If you're bad to me I will like you more