Hope To Hold On To

Give back my eyes so I can see
Return my lungs give breath to me
I want to feel the cold touch
Of grass against my feet
I want to know what it's like to be free from me

I wanna sink beneath the surface
Is there a darker side of me
Searching my soul won't bring me purpose
Cast myself out to sea

Clear my mind
And please let me rest
One chance to feel your heartbeat
Inside of your chest
I've felt so goddamn empty
At times that I couldn't see
Through the fog inside my mind
When the sound if your voice is all I need to find
Cause I'm afraid that I might fail you again

My actions
Have been misread
My thoughts
Have lead me down
A path that I can't follow
Is this an oath for no tomorrow?

Give back my eyes so I can see
Return my lungs give breath to me
I want to feel the cold touch
Of grass against my feet
I want to know what it's like to be free from me

And with the beauty of hindsight I realized you were never mine
These nights I think to myself
It will always be my fault
The stress aches in my bones

The cold anxiety
Splitting hairs as I regain
My sense of place
And all the pain the day you went away

I said I'm scared of growing old
Let me find hope to hold onto
Please just let me
I needed you more and you were never there
Never there when i needed
I'm so lost in my head
I'm hanging by a thread
You were never there when I needed you