contradictions (feat. Babs The Original)

Sun coming through the window panes
Reflecting on full cycles moments
Rose and burnt candles past
Paints a picture of what happened last
Night
Looking at you
As we laid up
In these pearl white sheets
Remembering how I loved you
And hated you
And loved you again
Conceding defeat
Feels like I'm addicted
Contemplating our contradiction
As it replays in my head
Over and over again
Circling back
And forth wondering
What do we bring to the table
This thing of ours
A libra scale of bad decisions
Questioning my empathy
And what I'm truly missing
Because my pride won't allow me
To rewind time
And pick up the phone
Even when I miss you
Falling victim
Playing along
Knowing I know better
While you gas light my love
As I question
Do you still love me?
Haunting dreams of what could've been
Numbness inside
Conversations
With empty Hennessy bottles
Fading through this moment in time
I turn over and ask
Can I get lost with you?
Or should I keep it moving
On this lesson of love
Loving you
Then hating you
And loving you again