Guarded

(Verse One)
No king zone, because i say so
But why do I say so, why do I say so
Because I’ve been done wrong so many times
Countless men crossing countless lines
I have every reason to build up my walls
But I never feel safe no matter how tall
In hopes of my building it might change my stance
But I’m not sure if I should leave that to chance

(Pre Chorus)
Blocking every man out, blocking every man out
Don’t wanna hear the good that comes out of their mouths
Because my mind twists words into numerous shapes
If I let it bother me, I fixate for days
I can’t get distracted because I cannot afford to
I don’t wanna do anything that I cannot undo
The last thing I can deal with is another broken heart
That is the main reason I’m not letting down my guard

(Chorus)
I’m sorry I’m so guarded
My heart is still in shards, yeah
Never take my guard down
Won’t give away what’s left of my crown
I’m sorry I’m so guarded
I’m more than brokenhearted
Never take my guard down
Never in this city of clowns

(Verse Two)
Only queens around here, I feel safer this way
But am I really safe? Am I really safe?
People either love me or they want me in the ground
It’s best I just say silent, I will not make a sound
No witnesses around, nobody should see this
In any sense of casualty, I would never be missed
Because no one is constant, life a revolving door
I can never blame them if they can’t take it anymore

(Pre Chorus)
Blocking every man out, blocking every man out
Don’t wanna hear the good that comes out of their mouths
Because my mind twists words into numerous shapes
If I let it bother me I can fixate for days
I can’t get distracted because I cannot afford to
I don’t wanna do anything that I cannot undo
The last thing I can deal with is another broken heart
That is the main reason I’m not letting down my guard

(Chorus)
I’m sorry I’m so guarded
My heart is still in shards, yeah
Never take my guard down
Won’t give away what’s left of my crown
I’m sorry I’m so guarded
I’m more than brokenhearted
Never take my guard down
Never in this city of clowns

(Bridge)
Oh why do I do this, why do I do this
How did I let my life end up just like this
I went and drained any ounce left of hope
I’m sick as they come now, I don’t know how to cope
I ask why am I like this, why am I like this
The waste of the earth, the broken bottles and pissed
Off at myself and I can never catch a break
So I wait for my death cuz I cannot carry this weight