GOD'S SOLDIER

Chewing on this pride and I don't like the taste
The same pride I need to drop before it's too late
Why
KS
Yo
I remember when I wasn't like this
When I had my guilty conscience I would make my pride fight it
When you're searching for love in the wrong place you can't find it
A lost soul needing some guidance
You really have a plan for me
So even if I don't make it to 40
Thank you for adoring me
Maturing me
Helping me see straight when these demons try calling me
Helping me bounce back when I fall short of your glory
Tryna remember everything you've taught me
Heal my wounds when they're saw to me
When everyone saw little in me
You saw more to me
That's your grace
Everything's your time it's not a race
Place
Everything falls into place when I pray
But when I don't I feel the floor beneath me shake
And a piece of my heart breaks
Lord I'm chewing on this pride and I don't like the taste
The same pride I need to drop before it's too late
Why
Cos reality check I can't do it by myself
Reality check you're the peace to my mental health
Rebuking intrusive thoughts cos they coming in stealth
I remember I was happy cos I two Gs on my belt
Now the only Gs I scream is God's Glory nothing else
You bled for me, to a cross you was nailed
All the times I've cried
All the times I've yelled
All the times we've won
All the times I thought i failed
I still praise you
This my letter to you
You know my struggles
My flaws and what I need to improve
This my letter to you
My letter to you
They think I'm talking to the moon
But I'm talking to you
I thought you took Kieya way too soon
But who am I to question what you do
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil
So thank you for hearing my letter to you
I'm praying I can be better for you
Praying I can love Adonai better for you
I need to remember she's a blessing from you
Ensuring the same love is a reflection of you
So whether my skies grey or blue I still praise you
Everything I am is only cos of you
Yo
Forgive me for the times that I've slapped your face
I've asked for a new job l, got it and gone in late
Or maybe I've been absent
Making vows and breaking them
I feel like Samson
And through those times I've never been abandoned
Your love never left me by a fraction
So everywhere I walk now your words is my lantern
I used to get sleep paralysis at random
Then I called out your name now demons have no business attacking
Your child
Was lost now
I'm found
I'm moulded through my trials
Look at me now
I'm blessed in my arrivals
I'm blessed in my goings
Blessed with these emotions I'm not showing
Try'na love you more and be open
Allowing fixing where I've been broken
No, I can't be hopeless
I can't be hopeless
I've seen what hopeless is
I gotta be hopeful cos I've seen what hope did
I've seen what it does
When life gets tough
Cover me with your blood
Having faith is a must
I feel like Jeremiah Lord I've been weeping
Lost in the wilderness I didn't know what I was seeking
Tryna keep my heart on you I can't allow greed in
I got closer to you when I was grieving
Cos I know you really have a plan
Moretime we won't always understand
But as long as we hold your hand
The same hand that designed this world where we stand
I know I'll be alright
So when day turns to night
Darkness never defeats the light
Thank you for helping me fight
And giving me the sight
Rebuking what my flesh desires
My God is the truth and the devil is a liar
My efforts won't go unnoticed cos God loves a trier
I said my God loves a trier
Rebuking what my flesh desires
My God is the truth and the devil is a liar
My efforts won't go unnoticed cos God loves a trier
I said my God loves a trier in
KS