Faking Asleep

You made a promise you kept from me when i was a child
To never yell how you felt
I think about that a lot even if I can’t say
Exactly how much that helped me

Where I am now

Didn’t appreciate anything that I had as a kid
Wasted my youth being young
Did my childhood end when i realized it was
Not really there till it’s gone?

Then suddenly I find
I am now the same age as my mother
When she had my sister I guess I thought
I would do the same when I got older
But now I’m older

I wonder what I might say to this person I make
When they finally arrive
In spite of everything else
They might see on TV
They should be patient and kind

Oh I think I just miss
Being that much smaller than my father
Driving back home in his car
Faking asleep taking me inside on his shoulder
When did I get older?

Have I grown up?
Where I am now
Will I lose touch?
Where I am now
Is it enough?
Where I am now
If I make someone I’m proud of?