Flames from the Past
I'm in a looping hell!
Step into the charred remains of the black neurons inside my brain
A flaming path of smoke and burning flesh, this is the dominating force inside my head!
My mind's in peril and you lack compassion
I've buried it all my life but inside it's all tension
I retain everything that makes me who I am
But this flood of trauma is making cracks in my dam
How could you laugh at me for this pain I vent about?
I dare you to look inside me and still run your mouth
You've taught me that emotions are making me weak
Just spend a day in my shoes, you'd look for death just to be free
The heat and smoke is smothering, my eyes are melting, blinding me
With every flash of reality I feel the burning worse and worse
Am I here at home or dying? I'm never safe even in hiding
My skin is scorching, stomach turning, this is my curse!
You'd leave me here just because I need comfort
Think before you condemn me, at least I'm not unfeeling
You think you're so much better but you're playing with my life
I'm not the monster you think I am, and I won't let your abuse fly
How could you laugh at me for this pain I vent about?
I dare you to look inside me and still run your mouth
You've taught me that emotions are making me weak
Just spend a day in my shoes, you'd look for death just to be free
Do you care that I'm crying? Do you care that my sanity's dying?
Does it matter that a part of me is trapped inside these flames that are blinding?
This trauma is killing me but you don't seem to care
You'll deny the chance to save me from dying in here...
The wreckage around me, I can't find my way out
I cry out to you, begging for help, but you're nowhere to be found
Collapsing with me inside, the walls of my mind are falling
As you tune out my screams of pain I'll die alone in here!
How could you laugh at me for this pain I vent about?
I dare you to look inside me and still run your mouth
You've taught me that emotions are making me weak
Just spend a day in my shoes, you'd look for death just to be free
Do you care that I'm crying? Do you care that my sanity's dying?
Does it matter that a part of me is trapped inside these flames that are blinding?
This trauma is killing me but you don't seem to care
You'll deny the chance to save me from dying in here...
The wreckage around me, I can't find my way out
I cry out to you, begging for help, but you're nowhere to be found (x2)
No longer can I let your abuse fly
I'm losing my consciousness and you're nowhere in sight...