Retlu (Real Emotions Test Life Unpleasantly)

Oh here I go again, speaking in different sentences
Trying to make sense out of something that's so illiterate
What's crazy, is that I'm still thinking bout you
That thought haunts, sleeping is mission too
Problem is, you think I'm a monster that hates u
Question, would u talk to a perpetrator that hurt u
Me knowing u, I know you'd prolly forgive
But forgiveness doesn't equate to no ignorance so we here
Mad pain, still in my eyes it hasn't left me
Seeing u is salting a wound, that's still fresh b
My unhappiness is stemmed from not forgiving you
Got me doing things cause I'm tryna move on for you
Buried with these emotions, I'm trying to resurface
The light in me keeps on flickering see what's worse
I say I hate you but really been the opposite
I'm tryna see u smile doing better with your accomplishments
Real Emotions Test Life Unpleasantly
I feel like that's what's scary
Real Emotions Test Life
Unpleasantly
This whole "love" thing, 'cause it's like
Real Emotions Test Life Unpleasantly
You know, you have no way of knowing
Real Emotions Test Life Unpleasantly
From the get go
Yea, all in my feelings, I'm trying to make sense
Putting myself in your shoes, hoping it  fits
I'm not accustomed to hurting, I'm not used to this
So when that ish happened I actually lost confidence
Nah, you don't get to be mad that I'm disappointed
We held each other to principal but you failed to uphold it
U held me accountable for things I didn't relate with
When the damage done, I'm tripping cause we weren't dating
Nah, don't justify your actions, cause I hate that
U acting like u didn't know somebody's getting hurt here
I know u stubborn, this was ignorant though
Not even ignorant, coz ignorance implies u didn't know
Look, I don't wish no death, I hope u smile too
I hope love and happiness what follows you
Find closure in the fact that I really love u see
I just wish you didn't act like u actually really cared for me
Real Emotions Test Life Unpleasantly
Like, (sigh) Real Emotions Test Life
You know what? Cut the session bruh