How Life Is

2005 someone gave birth to a boy
Move on to 2018 and that boy
Done turned to a teen
Fast forward to now and that boy
finally done turned 16
Almost a grown man and still don't know
What he gone do with his life
But look
People been telling him
that he should make music
Deep down inside I know that
He wants to do it
But that famous life
he not sure if he should choose it
Even tho it's probably his dream
He tend to overthink some things
He got some issues
He don't like to dive into
He got some problems
That'd he rather just keep bottled up
And lately he been taking shots
That he knows he can't follow up
So it doesn't help that he
been feeling lots of pressure
Bout how he should have his life down together by 18
And recently he's felt like everyday has turned to the same thing
But the boy doesn't realize
That he can go and
achieve some great things
If he sits down and tries to figure out
Where it is he's aiming
Cuz right now he's on an empty road
And don't know where he headed
And He's been cautious bout the one
that always gets recommended
Cuz he been thinking about the fact
It might not go as intended
I know deep down inside
The boys been suspecting
That the road he chooses
Won't have what he expects it
But he just needs this message

But man that's just how life is
And that's just the way it's gone go
What you with it Is mostly up to you know
Cause everyone eventually heads down
An empty road
But from there you gotta
Choose or find a path or way to go

When it comes to his friend circle
The boy feels like he's an imposter
Cause all homies got something that'll
Probably help them prosper
And the boy thinks that he has no talent or gifts to offer
Which makes me kind of sad
Cause I think the boy could succeed
If he genuinely tried to focus
Cause the boy got him a passion
But he keeps acting like it's hopeless
But I know the boy is low key
Just really afraid he gon blow it
And I'd say he has a talent
But I think he has yet to notice
Bright future ahead of the boy
But he doesn't realize or know it
And it only takes one song
But he still hasn't exactly wrote it
But it's going to take a while
So it's best to just have some patience
Cause is in these recent times
He's felt lonely and isolated
His head is no longer filled with that
Passion or motivation
And those issues he don't dive into
He also don't like to face it
He'd rather just sit and wait
For those demons to move locations
And that bottle is filled with problems
Mixed with resentment and hatred
For himself
After all cry for helps
He has yet to find him some remedies
And as the days go on he loses track
Of his identity
Cuz the boy has been disguised
As some energetic n****
Just so he can impress some n****
But reality is he's just another
Depressing n****
Another sensitive n****
Just a little selfish n****
Just one among the many who need
This message my n****

But man that's just how life is
And that's just the way it's gone go
What you do with it
Is mostly up to you know
Cause everyone eventually heads down
An empty road
But from there you gotta
Choose or find a path or way to go

I guess this night he couldn't take it
Been building up these feelings
Guess tonight he started breaking
This the mans he's gotta be
And for the longest he's just hated it
This is now his life and he just hates
He's shaped the it
But the the boy has this this mentality
That's it's too late to change it
He feel like
Life moves too fast
He tired of
Coming in last
Tired of
Feeling this sad
Tired of
Feeling so mad
So he been dwelling on the past
And though he don't want to lose his life
Lately he been reminiscing thinking
Bout his suicide
Like "what if I went thru with it?"
If killed myself today
Would the world really be losing s***
After the all the thinking he gets up
To go and do it
Then he finds the knife and plants it on his wrist
But before he moves it
His conscious tells him stop doing it
He says out loud
"I can't believe I'm this blind"
Then he start thinking bout the stuff
That He'd be Leaving behind
Like his father, his mother, his brother,
His cousins, his aunties, his uncles, etc.
But now that he done he stopped himself
He doesn't feel much better (ugh)
He feels desperate and selfish
And helpless
But he can't help it
And this is not just recently
The boy has always felt this way
Portrays himself at unconcerned
But truly he's not feeling safe
Fighting with his clone
Trying to get himself out this mental state
The boy is far from happy that
He put himself in this place

But man that's just how life is
And that's just the way it's gone go
What you do with it
Is mostly up to you know
Cause everyone eventually heads down
An empty road
But from there you gotta
Choose or find a path or way to go