Remedy

I want to scream, I want to cry but something's holding me back
Feeling motionless inside, levitating on the edge
The only thing I feel is growing weight upon my head
Suffocating all remaining sparks of joy inside my chest
A thousand words unspoken on the tip of my tongue
Paralyzed, mind broken, I am blackening my lungs
Long trapped in my world, disconnected from reality
My vision went blurred, someone help me find a remedy
I am the cancer that haunts me in my dreams
I am the disease, I am poisoning the air I breathe
I'm a reflection of self destroying self deceit
But still I try to love myself for all that I mistreat
It's hard to say a word and harder still to shed a tear
Yeah it hurts to see the people who have shaped me disappear
Left behind without a reason in a field of old debris
Reminding me I'm far from what I truly want to be
I want to scream, I want to cry but something's holding me back
Feeling motionless inside, levitating on the edge
The only thing I feel is growing weight upon my head
Suffocating all remaining sparks of joy inside my chest
Thousand words unspoken on the tip of my tongue
Paralyzed, mind broken, I am blackening my lungs
Long trapped in my world, disconnected from reality
My vision went blurred, someone help me find a remedy
I want to scream, I want to cry but something's holding me back
Feeling motionless inside, levitating on the edge
The only thing I feel is growing weight upon my head
Suffocating all remaining sparks of joy inside my chest
A thousand words unspoken on the tip of my tongue
Paralyzed, mind broken, I am blackening my lungs
Long trapped in my world, disconnected from reality
My vision went blurred, someone help me find a remedy