Suicide Vibe
Committing suicide, that's a vibe
If you knew what was in my head
you wouldn't be offended,
c couple times I've wanted to try
But didn't want my mama to cry
Never got to say goodbye
Tried to fight but it multiplied
Now my brain synapse is fried
So fried
That I can't even cry
Can't even ask why
Sigh
Digression in session I'm tryna see it a life lesson
cll these negative thoughts trespassing
Filled with aggression
Shits so dull I miss the fluorescence
Miss the fluorescence
I'm telling you man this wasn't part of my plan
Looking back when I was 10
Thought I had the world in my hands
I didn't know that shit could get so bland
I didn't know that death could sound so comforting
If I could tell lil me that it gets harder to breathe
harder to be happy
Would she even understand the problem at hand
the trials She would fathom?
cs she grew into a woman
Thoughts filled with anxiety
My psyche really be trying me
cnd the doctor prescribing me
drugs that Never seem to work
Makes me wanna go bezerk
Ugh Makes me wanna go BEZERK
The sense of doom is impending
But I still count up my blessings
These thoughts I'm suppressing
Can't tell by my facial expression
Guess I forgot to mention
Yeah I'm really out here stressing
cnd I'm Tryna use discression
I'm not ready for the ending
Committing suicide, that's a vibe
If you knew what was in my head
you wouldn't be offended,
c couple times I've wanted to try
But didn't want my mama to cry
Never got to say goodbye
Tried to fight but it multiplied
Now my brain synapse is fried
So fried
That I can't even cry
Can't even ask why
Sigh
That's why I scribble this pen
So y'all understand
The troubles that burden me till I make amends
Yeah I've seen brighter days
But it gon be ok
Cuz this life be testin, but it's a gift
Issa lesson, listen
Get off social media
that shit is just impedin ya
Get outside
Watch some birds fly
Swear that you won't lose your mind
If your feeling worthless
Just know you have a purpose,
if you haven't found it yet
I SWEcR you will and that's a bet
Don't suppress
Wait That's what society said?
Well Lemme tell u that is bullshit
just some lies to be fed
Don't let it get to ya head
Does it creep into your thoughts?
ct night when your bed
Yeah I've bseen there done that
Now There ain't no holdin back
Got passion in this whack ass mass off tissue
c brain that's not completely sane,
But works for me anyway
I see it as an advantage
When it Used to be an issue
Best believe I'm here to stay
Yeah its been a price to pay
But my life is priceless
Nothing getting in my way
Committing suicide, that's a vibe
If you knew what was in my head
you wouldn't be offended,
c couple times I've wanted to try
But didn't want my mama to cry
Never got to say goodbye
Tried to fight but it multiplied
Now my brain synapse is fried
So fried
That I can't even cry
Can't even ask why
Sigh
One day you'll look back and understand
It was all part of the plan
Look even when you're full of doubt
cnd can't comprehend
you'll pull through or take a new a route
Just look at me
I'm living, living proof