What's Gone Wrong?

What's gone wrong?
things just aren't clear to me.
it's all getting gray to me
my war's become internalized
I fight myself, will I make it out alive?

Can't stop it, I fight it, it just intensifies

Things aren't right, no calmness inside of me
nothing's perfect my heart races
it gets ahead of me
somedays it feels like I'm falling apart
embraces just don't help when you're falling apart

What's gone wrong? It's all gone gray to me