Not Scared to Die

Fuck
Fuck
I gotta turn around they know where I'm going
Alright I'm good
We're gonna be alright

All that did you see the bigger picture
Did you see the bigger picture
Hmmm Hmmm
Yeah
Had to clear my mind
Yeah look me in my eyes and you see that I'm petrified
I'm not scared to die
I'm just scared of life
And no matter what I swear that I'm not satisfied
Lotta shit about my friends I had to leave off
Lotta shit about my parents had to leave off
Lotta shit about myself and I was leading on
But it's like talking to a wall when you just speaking ah
It's like saying you ain't fuck when you wipe semen off
It's like saying you were happy fighting demons bruh
It's like saying you were hungry when you were feasting ah
Pff shit's a joke
Yeah at this point I swear that I'm just begging
Didn't look my way not even for a second
Hope I'm still breathing when I go to fucking send this
Swear to god I'm hurting and this shit a life sentence
Hope I end up in heaven
Cause I
Never did you wrong I did you right
And I'm so far from perfect but I try
And my shoulder where you always used to cry
And I'm done giving second chances
Thousand times on a thousand times
We do this shit like every time
And I'm just saying that I'm fine
It's all good yeah I'm all alright
But I'm not alright
I just gotta say it
Gotta clear my mind
I swear that it's perfect timing
Maybe one day I'll be shining
It's not what you say it's your body language
You don't have to say it knowing that you hate it
My heart is not something that you play with
I'm just so sick and tired all the fake shit
What I realize bout this album when I speak it out
I be listening to the words that you be speaking loud
And now I realize why I do it why I'm hurting now
Cause I could be okay
And you say I'm not okay
But all the times you talk you know I'm listening
And every time you hurt I take the blame
Put it all on me

Haha
You thought I was dead
I'm coming for you