The Embodyment

You say you forgive me but you never saw that side of me
Outside I be hurting but you don't see what's inside of me
My life is a movie it's directed by anxiety
Woah yeah yeah
Inside I be hurting my life ran by the anxiety
Outside I be happy but you don't see what's inside of me
All I feel is sadness I'm just tryna feel how happy be
I just gotta go and clear my mind
Yeah you never gonna see that side
Yeah I'm telling everybody I'm fine
I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine
Okay
I haven't slept in like four days
And you know it hurts me
When you say I ain't worth it
And I'm just worried
That I'll be single til I'm 30
And you know
Who could ever love me
I get so caught up in my thoughts
Have this feeling that I'm lost
I feel like I'm trapped inside this box surrounded all sides
Feel it at all times
This shit run my life
It run my life
My life my life my life
Been at the bottom so long I started kicking rocks
Got so much going for me I wish it didn't suck
I don't even know how it feel to be on top
I wish the voice inside my head would really fucking stop
Life is a depressant
I just hate I gotta express it
The sadness is a sentence
I hate That I feel I'm fenced in
Say I'm happy get defensive
hate that I can feel your presence
In the room I feel your tension
I feel
Like you
Yeah you
You ruin my life
You ruin my life
Yeah
You know I'm in your head
I like you better dead
I'm in your mind all day but I ain't paying rent
Gotta get this off my chest
When I said I'd hate you more I thought I'd love you less
All I wanted was to be with you
But you push me away
Say I'm a piece a shit
Why do I always stay
You say that I am the drama
I guess that I am your karma
Without me you calmer
Without me you nada
Without me you nothing
Hate that I ain't shit unless you in my head
Depression is the only thing that get me through and through all this shit