Hopeful

Alone in my head on a friday night
Everyone bails, that's alright
I'm used to these things
Suppressed rage is lingering
This is the most uncomfortable place
For someone who could never run the race
Of time, it passes me by
Slower than a single winged butterfly

Every mile
That i drive is a trial
For how long i can hold on
Hopefully not till dawn
I swear life does this to me on purpose
Not everyone feels like this every night
I hope i have a purpose
That it some day turns out right

This vacation hotspot's a cemetery drive
No place for hopefulness
Every day i do the same thing
Wake up at noon, stare at the ceiling
For her i coulda been a contender
For her i coulda been more tender
But she never gave me the chance
To try

Every mile
That i drive is a trial
For how long i can hold on
Hopefully not till dawn
I swear life does this to me on purpose
Not everyone feels like this every night
I hope i have a purpose
That it some day turns out right

Is it worth making myself vulnerable to the people around me
I asked myself that question a long time ago
Every day fatigue fills the world around me
Because my mind doesn't like to let go

Every mile
That i drive is a trial
For how long i can hold on
Hopefully not till dawn
I swear life does this to me on purpose
Not everyone feels like this every night
I hope i have a purpose
That it some day turns out right

I thought i could alter my own mind
I thought i could be my own hero
Turns out i'm dead wrong
Turns out i'm dead wrong
Turns out i'm dead wrong