Flashbacks (Go Away)

I feel cursed by these flashbacks
Everyday I backtrack
Did I really win or did the devil get the last laugh
Everybody backstabbed I was tryna stack that paper I didn't wanna go slave
And since I jumped off the porch I ain't ever behaved
Was in so deep feeling I could never be saved
Or severe the chains from all of my criminal ways
A demon stuck in a cage from the miserable pain
Unconditional rage
Experimenting with thangs so hard might as well of had my foot in the grave
Got some family members I can't even look in the face
Cause God stole my instructions whenever he took em away
Stuck in a daze through the maze, I was looking for days
Yeah we was hooked on the cain
Drugs crooked and laced
Hid my tears in the bass so I wouldn’t complain
And steered right through the place where I shouldn’t have stayed
I was just a young rebel that promised he’d never settle
My mental was so disheveled
Advocating for the devil
Breaking federal laws
I spoke never with God
I Fill the smoke in my throat just to better my flaws
Selling dope from the boat just to better my cause and told them to come back if they ever withdraw
I knew it was wrong
The bullets flew over my lawn
You getting clapped only time talent get an applause
So If he talking out his mouth they’d get rid of his jaw
Before he could call
Or leave his head split on the wall
I ain't proud but this is what I had lived through and saw
And the trauma from the drama still lives through us all

I wanna float away
I wanna go and stay
I want heavens gates to take me home today
I cant slow the rain
I wanna slowly fade
I ask god why the only thing I know is pain
Blast the chrome away
Before I go insane
A quick death really sound like a gift today
I cant lift my days
I wanna drift away
My regrets won't even let me live today
I cant switch my ways
I drank a fifth today
Hop in the whip crashed out on the interstate
I pray one day I can see differently

And I hope that it comes soon
Before I'm left here doomed
And my lows have me consumed
I wanna go do you have room
My better days are feeling past due
I must find a way to pass through

I wanna go