jANUARY. a year

In January we were in love
You made me feel like I was enough
Every second you were on my mind
But little did I know, I was falling apart
You made me feel a whole zoo
In my stomach
While you were getting small butterflies
In your heart…
In February we were happy together
You said you will love me forever
But what forever really means to you?
In March
You didn’t love me that much
You said
Babe, we will keep in touch
In April
I started feeling alone
And then our love story got really slow
I didn’t want to
to see you,
to hear about you or to be with you
And in May
I was going insane
We started from talking ‘till 5 in the morning
I ended up screaming at my pillow, sleep talking your name
But…
In June
I fell in love with someone new
I tried to escape
This confusing your love maze
I told myself I don’t need you
Even though it was hard
I thought I’m happy without you
‘Cuz you are going to break my heart
well…
In July
All this seems to be a lie
Oh God, I wanna die
Please just take my life
In August
My heart was broken again
I didn’t know if I could feel the same
If I could fall in love
Be for someone enough
Why am I not so tough?
And in September I told you I loved you,
I need you more than anything else
But I couldn’t say the same about you
Only because
Cry me a river you said
But if only you knew
How many times I’ve cried an ocean for you
In October
My memories
Oh, they came back to me
Remember that day we had an affair
We swung on carousels in that city fair
Back then I felt our childish fears
But now they are grown up tears
In November I hated you
Oh, how much I hated you
You are my biggest regret, my biggest fear
My biggest lost, so many tears
You make me think about the things you said
And now I can’t even bear you
December was the month
I finally had enough
Of falling for you
So let’s take a glass of rosè
Sit next to me, feel cozy
Let’s make another romance
And ‘till the dawn breaks - dance
For the last time I will say
For the last time I will say
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye.