Internal Dialogue

It must have been hard; staying in line
Knowing your influences insisted all the time
It must have been strange; living in blue
And see me shut down as though
It was an easy thing to do

But you could tell where I had been
By the way I held my gun
Trying to write anything
While being mocked by an off beat drum.
But I was not honest
I was not healthy
I was not honest, honest

You did the right thing
Covered your scars
Challenged your faith
And closed your eyes driving cars
For all that they knew
You were safe home
But you went through hell
Whenever you were left alone

But you could see where I had been
From the pictures that they took
I tried to look positive at things
Faced myself but didn't look
That was not honest
I was not healthy
I am not honest, honest

I wish you could see
Yourself through my eyes
There's no need to cling
To unnecessary lies
The voice in your head
Whose spirit you stole
Left you for dead
But you dug the hole

And I can tell where you had been
From the marks around your wrists
The red water washed around your sins
But are you as pure as this?
No, you are not honest
You are not healthy
You are not honest, honest

No, you are not honest
You are not healthy
You are not honest, honest