Waiting To Die

I won't sleep tonight,no
Insomnia keeps me up all night
And reminds me of my failures
I'm starting to believe it this time
It's going to be my last day alive

I don't laugh,I don't go out
I'm here trying not to mourn
But it's the only thing I long for

I'm a loser
Maybe they're right
I don't deserve to be alive
So here I am waiting to die
Not for them but for me
Cause this is the way I was meant to be

And after this night
I'll continue my silly life
I have everything I want
But all I do is crawl
I'm not lazy I'm just depressed
And it feels like climbing a mountain
Even to make one step

I'm a loser
Maybe they're right
I don't deserve to be alive
So here I am waiting to die
Not for them but for me
Cause this is the way I was meant to be

I stopped talking
Cause everyone finds me annoying
And everyone hates me so bad
But I guess I'll win even to that
I hate myself way more
I'm my biggest hater of all
And I really wish me the worst
I'm not well and I don't need to hide it
I wish to die I won't deny it
Waiting to die