Defuse

Went through a breakup and lost a couple friends
I forgot how to relax meeting other ends
Always learning
Bike wheeling
It's battles being fought up them chocolate eyes
And you know I judge a man by the way he gets hurt
And if he gets back up
Because that concrete burns baby
I'm running out of stars to reach for yeah
You running left and right but we forward dawg
Interrogation took so damn long that I forgot what these songs were supposed to do to me
Especially that last one I called it my suicide anthem
I wanted whole crowds singing it in tandem
But I guess I forgot to learn myself huh?
Well I never did ever hurt myslef huh? Well-
Other than not eating for two months
Or was it three four five fuck it
What even is time?
My father taught me how to defuse yeah
My mother taught me how to get through yeah
My friends taught me how to keep it cool
Another one? I'm gonna gonna gonna have to refuse
My father taught me how to defuse yeah
My mother taught me how to get through yeah
My friends taught me how to keep it cool
Another one? I'm gonna gonna gonna have to refuse
Be yourself or be nothing
All y'all just judging and judging
Keep on cussing it won't make you cool bro I promise
Keep slacking maybe one day your shit won't stank
I still keep the hat on my head despite my lack of capping
The shit you make it sticks to board cause it be tacky
Call me looney call me wacky but your girl left my house happy huh?
(Man fuck y'all)
Call me again figure it out yeah
I'm losing my head swimming in clouds yeah
Be yourself or be nothing
All y'all just judging and judging
Fuck that and fuck your face bro
(Pause)
They teaching all these lessons and lessons
But keep it standardized twelve point font with no questions
But what they never learned is how to be a freeman
They living half lives they just pretend
They're really in the deep end-
Gotta avoid that future mama ain't make no loser
I swear to god if I end up there then this pistol gon' shoot it
And them bullets be looting
Because I'm really tryna get a higher standard of living
And I believe I can do it if I just really get to it
So get the fuck up out of my way when I say that I'm moving
I said-
Appease you or leave you motherfuckin-
Appease you or leave you motherfuckin-
Appeasing you is leaving you motherfuckin-
Leaving you is appeasing you motherfuckin-