Mom's Whiskey

I've been drinking all my mama's whiskey
I've been staying up alone at night
I've been thinking 'bout mistakes
I'm payin' for
For which I still don't know the price
I've been actin' like my dirty laundry isn't
Dirty if I fold it right
I just don't know tonight, yeah

I've been feeling like the Knicks now
Had to sacrifice last year to try
And land a pick now random sidebar
I'm still pissed Netflix dropped The Get Down
And when I get down, ain't no end, shit
That's every day even on the bestest of days
Cups in the air 'til the rest can relate
Yeah
I've been findin' grooves in the madness
Yeah
I've been little bruised with the sadness
Yeah
I've been drinkin' booze to distract shit
Yeah i've been becomin' the cliché
Don't want them to wait 'til the end of the
Game to check on me, I ain't instant replay
Homie i be way lonely
Be on my phone where they be way phony
I made an album, I think it's amazing
I'm scared you won't like it though
What you know 'bout that?
Like when you write your truth
Can't say it was typo, yo
I mix my gangster with delicate
I've been afraid of the evidence
I'm in my jaded-est element
Soul is on fire, just hope that
My hope doesn't vacate the premises, uh
Fame be the fake-iest sedative
And I'm most afraid of irrelevance now
I've been treating women like
My heart is Trump
And like all my feelings is Mexicans
It ain't that I'm afraid to let 'em in
I'm just an emotional veteran
Emotion just ain't worth the stress in it
And all of these pressures been festering
Little bit of strength and a
Little bit of paint
What I work with now, that's all I need
Little bit of faith and a
Hint of some restraint
Wish I had more around, that's not what I see
They give me applause and a
Bunch of oohs and ahs
Hit the bars, but homie, that's not all I be
2020, they gon' get to know me, me

Sun is comin'
Shinin' above us and it's a good day
Did Jehovah tell me what love is?
Wish you could tell me somethin'
Fuck it, lose your friends
Lose your soul to trends
Losin' love to make the ends to get the
Means to make the M's to look behind
But play pretend and wish that
You could play again, but different now
The climate feel like winter now
This shit ain't real, it's all
Just smoke and mirrors, wild
Sinnin' alcoholic, yeah, I been it
Lyin', cheatin', yeah, I did it
Wear that shoe 'cause I fit it, yeah
Are you livin' what you rap 'bout?
Or are you livin' in a sad house?
Or do you really get enough rest?
Like fuck it, I'm about to cash out
Rooftop in my hometown with a sweet
Chick is my soul food
Got a new face and a new wave
But she only fucking with the old juice
So I been moving in and out the city
Time to time, you gotta cut the lights
Told my shorty I been hella busy
Mama told me don't believe the hype
I been somewhere holdin' down a Porsche
Livin' free and takin' no advice
Take the Johnny Walker over ice
Devil always puttin' up a fight

I been drinkin', I been drinkin' yeah

I've been drinking all my mama's whiskey
I've been staying up alone at night
I've been thinking 'bout mistakes
I'm payin' for
For which I still don't know the price
I've been actin' like my dirty laundry isn't
Dirty if I fold it right, yeah
I just don't know tonight, yeah, yeah, look
I've been drinking all my mama's whiskey
I've been staying up alone at night
I've been thinking 'bout mistakes
I'm payin' for
For which I still don't know the price
I've been actin' like my dirty laundry isn't
Dirty if I fold it right, yeah
I just don't know tonight, yeah