Coping Mechanism

Feelings? I don't know about feelings...
Do you mean I've gotta look inside?
Brushed hands up against the ceiling
Of the inside of my own mind

Feelings? I don't know about feelings...
Does that mean I've gotta look inside?
Thoughts and overwhelming feelings
Colliding right behind my eyes

Do you want me to sing about who I've become?
Just a scared little mess and a son of a gun
Cold strapped to my hip every hour of the day
Is this what it's like to be normal and okay?
Am I okay?

Feelings? I don't know about feelings...
Do you mean I've gotta look inside?
Reeling over all these feelings
A tide washed over my tired eyes

Do you want me to sing about lacking a father?
Or what it was like growing up with my mother?
As tired as she was I saw that she kept walking
So who I've become doesn't stop 'cause I'm
Rocking my heels in the dirt
Is it real if it hurts?
Do I eat the dessert for the toothache?

The love that I claim
The violence and pain
The friends that I've made along the way
The puzzle undone
And the sun
And the gun
And the violence I wrought in the rain

There's no sunshine today
Just blood and shit in the rain
There's no sunshine today