temporary nothing [revisited]

How does it feel
To feel nothing at all I wonder
I imagine it's grey
Like the world suddenly lost its color

But I'd be lying if I said
I hadn't wished to feel nothing
To feel nothing at times

Cause feelings are painful
I don't wanna suffer through
All those moments without you
When I lost you
Anger and sadness
They're always there
They're always pretty rough
To cope with

Feelings oh feelings
You tear me apart
I wish I could start again
Again

But I know that there's the other side
The one that I can't see right now
But I'll find it
Yeah I'll find it

And when I do
I'll be
So better for the rest
So much better in my chest
Can you feel it, can you feel it?

And when you do
You'll be
So happy that you felt
So happy that you dealt with it
Yeah you dealt with it

Feelings oh feelings
You tear me apart
And I wish I could start again
Again

But I know that there's the other side
The one that I can't see right now
But I'll find it
Yeah I'll find it

And I used to think
That being numb would ease the pain
But I was wrong
I was so wrong
It's just better to feel
And know you're alive
While reminding yourself that it's temporary
Oh it won't last for long