Ragtime

I said when you're done come look for me-
It’s like looking for cocaine in the snow
And all my friends are in my head
That’s how we’re always in the know
I feel air bubbles in my chest
This a body I’ve outgrown
Cigarette smoke all in my clothes-
Play the drum line with my bones…
Another Griot…
Eyes closed
She knows

I’m scared to
Sleep
For fear of
Cold
It’s in my
Genes
Words in my
Soul! (throat)
Don’t wanna bleed-
But I want to, go
I hear my
Beating
Like ragtime
Like rag-time

I told myself I’m doing fine
I think I'm starting to believe
I think I’d rather check the time-
Before I go to check my breathing
I saw myself in a big window
Then inside a TV screen
No depression
Just reflections-
Of how I look when I’m not screaming!
I know I learned to follow suit
Before I learned to follow dreams
And I wear designer clothes-
To put my heart out on my sleeve
T-Shirt say Comme Des Garçons;
And my mouth say Comme Des Filles
I know the way I live life cold
But at least I’m not on my knees…
Instead I rest in peace!
Clean
God speed…

I’m scared to
Sleep
For fear of
Cold
It’s in my
Genes
Words in my
Soul! (throat)
Don’t wanna bleed-
But I want to, go
I hear my
Beating
Like ragtime
Like rag-time