Hysteria

"Embrace the end of everything"

I know this state of mind is my blind side
I don't know what to expect and how it feels right
I let hysteria cloud my view
I let confusion always get the best of me
I don't know how to define my own reactions
To all dependencies and distractions
Funny how depression takes control
And the illusion that I'm always ahead of it

Hate - I can embrace it
Pain - I'm sure I'll face it
The guilt that's left inside
Leads to suicide
Faith - I can't regain it
Blame - I can't sustain it
To live and not deny
A need for suicide

I know how to behave on the outside
I have proven myself to be upright
I'm not afraid to lose my mind
I'm just surprised that it took so long for me
I'm not sweating at all nor short of breath
But how can I be so sure of what I don't have
I let hysteria guide my ways
I'm sure obscurity is not really helping here

Hate - I can embrace it
Pain - I'm sure I'll face it
The guilt that's left inside
Leads to suicide
Faith - I can't regain it
Blame - I can't sustain it
To live and not deny
A need for suicide

If I could only observe my own actions
Every little detail of this affection
In the light of day it looks so wrong
In the dead of night it does make sense to me
Is there hate to embrace and does it help me
To reduce the pain to a lower degree
Or can I do leave it all behind
I'm sure I can embrace the end of everything

"Embrace the end of everything"

Hate - I can embrace it
Pain - I'm sure I'll face it
The guilt that's left inside
Leads to suicide
Faith - I can't regain it
Blame - I can't sustain it
To live and not deny
A need for suicide