Falling

Believe me when I say
That I've tried to understand
But something within me
Just holds me back and says I can't

I'm fading, degrading
Trapped inside this cycle hell
Fighting, and hiding
A persisting lust that I must fill

Wanting to give you
All I can that's in my will
But inside it has rule
The more I grab the more I spill

Decided, divided
I cannot drop this burning coal
Trusting, and lusting
Competing sides strive for control
Why?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Falling torn by deceit, approaching self-defeat
The mental light that's hounding, pounding
I'm falling

A feeling of sadness
Follows me with my mistakes
Scarred in my conscience
Haunting every move I make.

Alone, drifting miles apart
I'm found, with an empty heart
The sound, of peace is calling me
I wait, for a time of ease

Can't you see, that I am weak
Can't you see, I'm falling.